Gadsby Gang

Summer update

2011-09-23T08:20:00.000-07:00

It's been a while again since I've updated, the summer has gone by way too fast! Anyways, all is good here, Jack is getting taller and a lot more stubborn, he now will not sleep without his airplane, a flashlight and his Thomas blanket lol. He's still very picky about food and will only eat about 7 or 8 foods, and the most popular right now is yogurt, he absolutely will not try anything new. The potty training is not going as planned, he will sit a few times a day and sometimes will go when he's on the potty, but for the most part he gives me a hard time about sitting there more frequently.

The little person arriving in January we found out is a boy! I've had two ultrasounds, one in August for anatomy scan and they didn't get all measurements so I had to go for another three weeks later, and all looks good. I have to go for another at 32 weeks to check growth.

18 weeks

21 weeks

And here I am 22 weeks :)

And little man Jack playing the keyboard with daddy

Ramzi's theory and placenta placement

2011-07-18T08:54:00.000-07:00

I've been reading up on the theory, and I guess if you get an early ultrasound and the placenta is on the right it indicates possible boy and on left a girl, so I found this website ingender.com where you can post your u/s pics and there are a few there really good at reading & guessing the gender from the u/s pic. I posted mine and was guessed a boy, and I also got a great gender reading from a really good reader on there. Here is the reading I got :)

tannilisa, I am picking up a BOY for you!!! These babies are hard to see today for some reason....like there are going to be a bunch of surprise pregnancies or something! He seems to be writing in a journal or book...so he will obviously be very creative and like writing...maybe the next Stephen King??? NICE! He is into entertainment and production, so he simply has acting, writing, movies in his blood...nurture it,because he can go far! God Bless
RL

It's a pretty interesting site! I can't wait to go for my anatomy scan to find out what it is, I'm so impatient.

Jack has been a little terror the past few days, I caught him squirting his sippy cup spout all over the floor and on my sandals, then he had snack from one end of the living room to the other. He also thinks it's great fun to stand up on the couch, jump up and land on his butt (he does this in his crib too) so he's been in time out a lot lately lol.

It just sunk in..

2011-07-14T09:16:00.000-07:00

that I'm gonna be a mother of two. I had my 12 week ultrasound yesterday and as I was looking at the ultrasound pics with hubby, I found myself finally realizing that there really is a baby in there, and yes I'll have two kids in like 6 months! It kind of blew my mind lol. But the ultrasound went great, all looked good and the nuchal fold was 1.66 which is normal, the LO was bouncing and rocking its head and legs like listening to music, it was pretty cute, the tech got a kick out of it. I went for bloodwork after so I'll get those results probably next week. I now can't wait until my next u/s!

Other than that, all has been quiet around here, we're thinking about getting Jack his "big boy" bed soon and getting him used to that, and also have to work on the potty training thing too. He was doing ok for a while then he sort of lost interest, but I'm gonna get him re aquatinted with his potty and hope for the best. It seems like I have so much changes coming up and so little time to get Jack ready for all these big kid things. Ohwell, I'll do the best I can with it and hope that Jack adjusts easy to the bed, he loves his crib.

I suppose that about it for now, here are some u/s pics:

I found the heartbeat!

2011-06-13T13:00:00.000-07:00

I got a Sonoline Doppler a few weeks back and decided today to try it, even though I'm 7 weeks and 6 days and after a few minutes I found it!! I couldn't believe it! I recorded it to show hubby in case I couldn't find it again later this evening

It's about time...

2011-06-03T10:48:00.000-07:00

Well, I've neglected my blog long enough and figured it's time for an update, especially since I have news to share!

First, Jack is doing very good he seems to be getting taller by the day but still my little peanut! His eating habits are a bit frustrating though and he's going through a picky stage or refusing to eat anything, some days are worse than others. He's talking a bit more but still not sentences yet, just words and maybe two words put together once in awhile.

As for me,well I finally got what I was patiently waiting for...

I'm so stinking excited!! But am still cautious until the 12 week mark. My first appointment is next Tuesday and won't get an ultrasound probably until 12 weeks and it seems like so far way.

So, that's really all that's been happening around here! I'll be better and have more updates soon!

Oh I can't forget a Jack pic!

And a video...

It's been a long time...

2010-10-28T04:05:00.001-07:00

It's been a long time since my last post, I'm not sure where to start for an update, but basically Jack is doing really awesome and is talking more and more, he jibber jabbers all day and sings "twinkle twinkle little star" lol. He's getting really tall and is definitely gaining weight, he's gotten heavy that's for sure!

As for me, well it's been months TTC and I'm hoping this is my month, but I'm not holding my breath. It seems like this time TTC is taking so much longer than it did with Jack. Maybe it's because I'm older.

We got Jack's pictures done a few weeks ago and he would not smile lol, the lady doing them was a little weird really so he just looked at her like "what are you doing?" We did manage a few halfway smiles and they did come out really cute anyways!

Well, I will try to update again soon, I just get so busy and forget to a lot of times. Here are some of Jack's pics:

Just another update..

2010-07-26T03:40:00.000-07:00

Just wanted to shoot out a quick update since I haven't done one in a few. Nothing too much going on, we're still trying for baby #2, last month we had a positive but it was quickly followed by a negative so another chemical pregnancy. But, I've had blood work done on my thyroid and all is normal, so we tried again this month and I hope things stick around for once!

Jack is awesome and is growing like a weed, he's always hungry lately and is definitely getting taller. He's really starting to look like a little boy and not a baby anymore. His vocabulary is picking up too and he says all kinds of words, oh and I trained him to rub my back while I sit on the floor lol it's too cute!

Hope to have some good news soon to post about getting pg. I will update when I can :)

It's been awhile...

2010-06-23T08:08:00.000-07:00

I haven't updated here in a while, so i thought I'd give a quick update. Jack is now 19 months(wow!) and he's really getting to be quite a handful lol, he's talking alot and says new words it seems like every day, the other day he said "quirrel" (squirrel). He's still a bit on the skinny side but is growing in hieght just fine, so the doctor wasn't too worried at his 18 month check up. As for me, we got pregnant this month, but had an early miscarraige, so I guess we'll try again next month and hope it sticks around. That's about it for now, I'll update again soon!

8 Years ago.....

2010-04-09T08:34:00.000-07:00

Eight years ago, I found out my 40 year old sister, mother of three and a wonderful person in every way, was found in the trunk of her car apparently strangled. I can't really remember the days following, because everything was a fog and I was just floating in a shocked state and physically I was sick as a dog. I do remember her wake and funeral and the masses of people that were there. There was over 4oo at her wake. She had tons of friends. Her two special needs children, especially her autisitc son didn't really understand what had happened at first, but he dealt with it in his own way. He would ofen say that his mom was tickling his feet at night, and I honestly believe she was. So, it's been eight long years sisnce I last saw my sister alive, and even though time has healed to some extent, the hurt is always there and always will be. Her murderer is in maximum security prison and will be eligible for parole in about 7 years or so. but something tells me he will never make it out, he's just too evil and sick.

Here is her memorial website I made for her a few years back and also another that was put up by a memorial group:

Cheryl Tavares Memorial

My website

On a much happier note..I am again in the two week wait and am praying this month is the one, I test next Wednesday-that's the earliest I can :) Hope to have good news next post!

My new store, and a quick update

2010-03-10T11:18:00.000-08:00

I just opened a new used babies clothes store called Gymbo Jack's, I have a few Gymboree items on and plan to put a few more on as Jack outgrows them (which may take a while lol) I also have tons of other brands to put on and have some already up for sale. Right now I only accept Paypal as a payment method because it's easier for everyone, I'm wondering though when someone buys something, will I know what they bought? Like will it say the item they bought? Hopefully it will!

Jack is doing good, I've been feeding him lots of fattening stuff and he gets milk at every snack & meal, he goes for his weight check on the 26th, but I don't think he's gained much by the feel of him, but he's been a happy little guy playing, singing and making all kinds of weird new sounds lol. This morning I caught him with a lady bug in his mouth, yuck! lol, he looked at me like "what's all the fuss about??"

Here is my store link to anyone who wants to check it out :)

Gymbo Jack's

Jack's 15 month appointment

2010-03-01T05:45:00.000-08:00

Well, Jack is still tiny, he weighs only 17 1/2 lbs and 30 inches long. They are concerned but not too worried as he's always been slow to gain and always has been tiny. But we have to go in a month for a weight check, then at his 18 month if he's still having issues they may run some tests, one of which will be for celiac disease like Sean and his mother have. If he does have it, it'll be fairly easy to eat at home because we already eat gluten free, the only thing I would have to change is his pasta, he'd have to have corn or rice pasta, and the bread too, we would have to switch to gluten free (gross but not too bad when toasted).

It makes me sad sometimes that he's not growing like he should, I know it's not my fault, but I still have thoughts of maybe I'm doing something wrong, should I feed him even more? He eats really good so I have no clue were he's putting the calories.

But, other than that he's doing great! Dvelopmentally he's right on track and is "babbling" more and more. He got 2 shots and did very good. It was funny when the nurse came in with the shot stuff, he looked and started crying, he knew exactly what was coming lol, poor guy!

We're still TTC, my cycles have been messed up, so I guess we'll see what happens this month. If I get another really short cycle then I'll have to go to the doctors I think to see what's going on.

Another Month..

2010-02-09T04:55:00.000-08:00

This will be month #3 for trying for #2 lol. For some reason I had a really short cycle last month, and I got AF three days early, so this month we're not going to stress to much and if it happens it happens.

Jack is becoming quite the character, he now says about 20 words and his latest is "nose", he'll run around with his finger up his nose yelling "nay!" too funny lol. He loves to sing too, I think he wants to be in daddy's band! He's also eating alot and I'm wondering where the heck he's putting it, he does seem taller. I can't wait to see how much he weighs at his 15 month appt in a few weeks.

It's waiting time again

2010-01-31T11:04:00.000-08:00

Well, I will be testing this week again, and I actually feel like this could be a positive. Last month I wasn't too sure, other than being extremely irritable lol. So by the end of this week or next week I should know :D

Jack is being a stinker today and will not nap! He up in his crib right now talking, playing,laughing, banging the wall, everything but napping. Oh well, hopefully he'll go down soon at least he's not crying.

Jack's 1st haircut!

2010-01-25T04:28:00.000-08:00

The 1st haircut went very well, we brought him in Saturday to the lady who has been cutting mine and Sean's hair since we were teenagers, and she was honored to give Jack his first cut. He did so great! Even though he was a bit tired and hungry, he just sat on Sean's lap and didn't make a peep. He looks like a little boy now and not a baby, I can't believe how he's growing! I took pictures and video of course! Here are some:

And here's the video!

Walkin' & babbling videos

2010-01-14T04:30:00.000-08:00

Now that Jack is walking pretty much full time, I got another short walking video of him, and also got a babbling video too

The wait is over..

2010-01-12T05:31:00.000-08:00

As of Sunday the waiting is over, I took a test like every day last week I swear lol, but Sunday the witch showed up. Sean was a little disappointed I could tell, so I guess we're going to TTC starting this month as it could take a few months anyways. Man that was some awful PMS though, worst I think I've ever had! That must be what menopause is like lol, definitely not looking forward to that! I will keep updated as to how the TTC is going :) Oh...Jack is walking most of the time now, and is getting into everything all of a sudden. He ripped off all of the furniture corner pads yesterday and tried getting into the TV console to get the DVD's, what a stinker lol.

A quick post...

2010-01-06T04:50:00.000-08:00

No, I didn't test yet, but I will tomorrow :) I just wanted to post a quick update, not really much to write about other than the loong wait to test. Last night I was very emotional and cranky, and that's really not like me at all, even with PMS...and I've been extremely hungry, so either I have really awful PMS this month or I'm pregnant. I remember with Jack I felt much like I do now before I tested, I actually got in an argument with my older sister which is totally bizarre since I'm not argumentative at all!

On other things..we've got to do our house plans over again *sigh*, can anything ever go the way it's supposed to? I want to get this thing moving along already, there's so many things that need to be done to do an addition, I had no idea! Our septic tank is going to have to be replaced sooner rather than later, I can't even do a load of laundry without it causing water in the basement, it sucks.

Jack still isn't walking full time, he loves to walk to me or to his toys from me, but he prefers his push toy still to get around. His morning nap is getting shorter and shorter, so I know soon he'll probably be dropping it, but I'm hoping if he does that that he'll sleep a little longer in the mornings, he's still waking up at 6am.

Waiting...

2009-12-30T05:58:00.000-08:00

As of today I am waiting the "two week wait" to see if I'm pregnant. We had a little slip up last week and I found it was right in my most fertile few days, so we'll see. I won't be able to test till the 7th at the earliest. I would be soo excited if we were expecting, but at the same time I was hoping to get my large kidney stone taken care of before trying, but oh well I guess we'll know soon enough, it's gonna seem like forever though waiting until the 7th.

Jack is now taking a lot more steps and can walk across the room by himself, he does still prefer his push toy though to get around quicker lol. next week he goes in for his second H1N1 shot the same day I go to my urologist to find out about my stones (also the day I can test). He's also saying "yeah" alot haha, it's so damn cute!

I'll update here when I can about the test- and if you happen to be on my facebook friends, please don't mention the testing or anything, thanks!

A Little Update

2009-12-19T10:51:00.000-08:00

Just wanted to do an update before possibly losing power later on or tomorrow, we're getting hit with a blizzard tonight and all day tomorrow. Should be fun though! Yes I am a weather weenie! It would suck to lose power though, so I'm praying that we don't.

Anyways..Jack is now walking a few steps at a time, he gets sooo happy and excited about it too lol! It's just so adorable, but my baby is turing into a toddler, and also a toddler with an attitude! He's starting with temper tantrums when we doesn't get his way. It's kind of funny sometimes but I try not to laugh and just ignore him, it's hard though. So, I hope to have a walking video soon!

Oh, I got a reading from another psychics that predicts BFP's (yeah I know I'm addicted lol, it's all for fun though!), her name is Ruby. I'm still waiting for the one I recently ordered from Brooke. Here's the one I got today, interesting:

I see a conceive or find out with a bfp or give birth in Jan. So either conceive or find out with a bfp Jan of 2010 or give birth Jan of 2011. I see a boy.

I see your son being born at 8:02 in the evening. I see him weighing 7.8 pounds and being 20.9 inches long. I see your labor lasting around 17 and 19 hours. I see your son being born on either the 12th or the 22nd day of the month you are due in with him. I see him being born on a Thursday.

When I connected with your son I heard the names Evan and Chase. This could be someone you know, someone you will meet, his name/s or a combination of these. If this doesn't make sense now it WILL in the future.

Your son comes through being very charming, very cute, without doing anything to get that way. Seems he could take someone into anything with little and no effort. It won't be in a way that takes advantage of people, but I see most people willingly wanting to do things for him even if he wishes that weren't the case. So he has the power to be VERY powerful if he wanted too. From a very early age I see him likeing things that feel high class with how they look. Not having to have materialstic things, but he will love things that posses a high level of beauty to them. For example he will be always be asking to go the museaum to look at the beatiful works of art and he will draw things that look like they should be in the museaum as well, drawing in a color book will never do it for him.

More baby predictions :)

2009-12-14T12:55:00.000-08:00

Well, I was looking through my saved e-mails for another reading I got in December of '07 and I came across this one from a lady named Brooke, she was excellent and also predicted my BFP and gender correctly. So...now here I am getting more readings lol, I do it for fun mainly, but I think it's kind of cool when their right on! I just ordered another from her today and I'll post it when I get it.Here is the reading I got from her before:

Hi Tanya! In regards to you first question, I feel you will conceive Feb/March. I believe you will be pregnant with a BOY.

When I asked about your business ventures, I see you making money with both, but particularly with this new design venture. They keep showing me this BABY though, again and again, so I think they're saying that your pregnancy may be a slight "distraction" from your career if that makes sense. They were adament about letting you know this baby's coming and you may want to take it easy for a while, not working so hard.

Hope this was helpful and please keep me posted, Tanya!

-Brooke

Jack walked!

2009-12-07T10:23:00.000-08:00

Jack took his first real steps this weekend, he took three right into my arms, I am so excited! And he was so proud! He has been walking all around with the help of a cruising toy that nana got him and he loves it! I think it's helping him to try to walk alone. I got a few videos of him walking along with his toy.

My Cheri prediction for baby #2

2009-12-02T05:40:00.000-08:00

I got a reading from Cheri before Jack was born and she was right on with him, I then got a reading shortly after asking if there's a #2 in the future and this is what she wrote back:

Hi there Tanya

Thanks for the information, when I can update my site I will include your good news.

After this boy they show a girl and they relate her to AUGUST so this is either birth month, concieve month or the month you find out in.

When it comes to your daughter would tell you tha ti See her as someone who is always very reliable, someoen who seems to be able to think on her feet and is awlays very awware of what is going on around her. I would consider her to be friendly but always straight to the point, shes not one to beat around the bush and is known to be at times a bit outspoken in regards to things that she wants and how she feels. Shes never rude about it, but you know that when shes stuck on one thin in particular, that shes thought alot about it, that shes spent the time getting to the point where shes researched the other options and able to come to her own conclusion,.

I see her as really loving pets, cats and dogs especially,. Shes always pretending to be their moms and wanting to dress them up and play with them. She does have a good imaigination and is someone who really does take the time to relax and have fun.

When it comes to your daughter, they show her as someone who is very organized, someone who is financially organized, and is one to research her options,. Shes not impuslive at all and doesn't just go rush out and spend her money just because she has some. When receving money for her birthday, is known to go and put it in the bank and save it till shes more sure of what she wants.

When it comes to career paths,t hey show her in a journalism field and they link this to do with TV/ADVERTISING/PROUDCER type area

When it comes to marriage they show her closer to 24, they will have two boys and one girl of their own.

And this was her prediction before I was pregnant with Jack:

Hi Tanya

I am seeing BOY for you and relateing him to NOVEMBER so this is etiher birth month, concieve month or the month you find out in.

This prediction incldues the indepth reading of one "question" so it can either include the indepth reading of your son to come, or can include the connection with your loved ones who have passed. Let me know. I am back online tonight so if you respond tonight I can do yours first:)

Then here is the rest of the reading:

Hi Tanya

Here is the reading on your son

when it comest o your son would tell you that he is someone who is always going to do things the "right way" the way that its written in the book, the way that he is taught it the first time..etc. He likes to make sure that things are done according to plan and will get a bit aggitated if things change wtihout him being prepared. He likes to have things more of a routine, somewhat stable and predictable.

I think tha tyou will find that he is always very friendly, someone who seems to be able to make friends very easily and is always avaiable when you need him. I think that you will find that he is always eager to learn and always eager to help out.

he is someone who seems to be able to memorize things very easily, always able to understand complex situations as if he has been invovled more than once, even if its brand new to him. He soaks everything up like a sponge. I think that you will find that he can be a bit emotionally tied to certain things and can come upset when its taken away. Hes very sentimental.

I think that you will find that alot of the things he does is to impress both you and your husband. Pushing himself to make sure that he does it right.

When it comes to career paths, I see him as more of a researcher and this is linked to have to do with minerals.

When it comes to marriage I see him closer to 26, they will have one boy of their own.

Let me know if you have any questions

Thanks

Cheri

So..I'm hoping to TTC #2 this summer, and I hope she's right like she was with Jack!

Jack's 12 month stats

2009-11-30T11:02:00.000-08:00

Jack went in for his 12 month appointment last Friday and his stats are:

Height-29 inches

head-17 inches

weight-16 lbs.

The doctor was a little concerned with the weight, but not overly concerned, he's eating well, is very active and is right on target developmentally for his age and in some areas he said he's a little advanced. He did do a urine test to make sure he didn't have a infection, because I guess some babies can have them with no symptoms and it causes slow weight gain. The test was fine though. I'm trying not to worry too much and am feeding him fattening stuff and even started whole milk mixed in with his formula. I think he's ok with the milk, although for the past few days he's been waking from his nap crying and won't go back down so I'm not sure if that's because of all the shots he had or something else. Anyways, he got his MMR vaccine, the pneumonia vaccine (last of 4), and H1NI, they delayed giving the chicken pox one until his 15 month check-up because it was way too much in one day.

On top of that he's been having a really runny nose, and his two top teeth are popping through. Sean and I both got a cold over the weekend, so I'm feeling a little crappy today. I did manage to get a few Christmas pics of Jack last week, we were going to get them done professionally but really don't want to bring him around too much with the crowds and stuff right now. Here are a few I took and some I used for Christmas photo cards (which I got totally free!)

Party Video!

2009-11-23T08:32:00.000-08:00

Here's a video of Jack having his first B-day cupcake, he didn't eat it though lol! I must warn you though that there are a few swear words thanks to my crazy friends and family, nothing really bad, maybe the "s" word and stuff like that! I have some party pics posted on facebook, I'm too lazy to post them here lol

One Year Today!!

2009-11-20T10:03:00.001-08:00

My sweet little man is one today, and I just can't believe how fast a year went by!! This time last year I was in active labor after being induced, I saw my son that night for the first time at 8:13 pm via emergency c-section. He was so tiny, my little 5 pound 10oz.er it's hard to believe he was that small and he looks so big now in comparison. After being told years ago that I was too sick to become pregnant, here I sit writing about my one year old's birthday! I have never felt as much love as I do for this little person, he's so amazing and every day I'm so grateful that he's here!! He's getting braver and braver and just this morning attempted his first steps. Today at 3pm we'll celebrate his Birthday with our family and close friends, although a few can't come because of swine flu so we'll have a small party with them when they're all better. Here's a slideshow of Jack's first year

A quick update

2009-11-13T05:35:00.000-08:00

Not too much going on, Jack is getting closer to his first steps and Sean thinks he'll do it by his Birthday, we shall see! I can't believe he'll be one next Saturday! We decided on a pizza party for food, it's easy since they'll be so many people and 8 kids. Sean's mom is helping with the cupcakes, we're going to do this:

I already have the monkey topper pieces for it, it should be cute!

I've been working on exercising and have dome three days this week. I really need to lose weight, it's super hard when you have a thyroid condition, you have to work twice as hard to get the old metabolism moving. Sean is also exercising to get that cholesterol down some, hope it works, he had blood work this morning again to check it.

We get the final plans this week for our house addition, and hopefully will break ground in the spring. It'll be nice to have more room, a garage and also my mother-in-law in her in law apartment!

I had another lithotripsy procedure a few weeks ago to try to break up the 12mm and 8mm stones I have in the left kidney. I go back on December 4th to get my right side blasted, then after that I have a ultrasound to see if the procedure worked. If not I may have to have more invasive surgery to remove them :(

Halloween

2009-11-03T04:54:00.000-08:00

We took Jack to just a few houses on our street, there are only 5 houses on the top of this road and all the rest are about half a mile down without street lights, so needless to say not many people go trick or treating on my road. Our neighbors Steve and Evelyn were home, so Jack got his very first halloween candy there. My friend Jenn came by with her three kids and we all went together, it was pretty cool. The weather was warm, like almost 70 degrees but it was brutally windy, alot of snapping of branches and such. Jack had a great time though and this will be the last of his firsts *sniff sniff* I can't believe he's getting so big.

These were taken that afternoon, it was sooo warm!

Oh, and Jack stood all by himself long enough to clap last night! I was so proud of him, I think he'll be walking very soon, then I'll be really busy

Weekend update

2009-10-27T04:34:00.000-07:00

Well we got bad news yesterday morning, Sean's nana passed away, she was 103 years old and had congestive heart failure. She refused the medicine, and to be honest I don't blame her, she was in a nursing home with a sharp mind but her body was giving out, the food was awful, none of the other residents had their minds, and they had young men giving her showers even though Sean's mother specifically asked them to have a woman do it. I hate nursing homes.

On a lighter note, we got the plans for our addition, I can't wait until they start building, but first we have to see how much it's going to cost and them get a construction loan. Sean's mom is trying to sell her mobile home, but no luck yet. I can't wait to have a bathroom upstairs! I hate going up and down 3 times a night!

Jack has been going back and forth on naps every day, one day he naps great, the next he won't nap and is Mr. cranky pants. He stood all by himself yesterday, so I think he'll be taking his first steps any time now:)

Here is my little monster trying to turn on the TV yesterday

Home Photo Shoot

2009-10-20T11:35:00.000-07:00

So today I tortured poor Jack with a photo shoot, and I think I got some pretty good ones, here are a few of my favorites:

I wanted to get him in his costume but he started fussing and that was the end lol!

It's been a long week

2009-10-17T12:50:00.000-07:00

is week had a lot of surprises, mostly good but a few not so good. I'll start with the good ones.. Jack has learned to point to his toes when we ask where his toes are, put his arms up when we say "arms up!", say "yeah yeah yeah" then laugh, clap, stand on his own and actually grabbed some of my cheese sandwich and put it in his mouth, his first self feeding attempt! That was pretty much all in a few days lol, I'm so proud of him. He's still getting up at 6 am though the little stinker, I can't wait for the day when I can sleep at least until 7!

And now for the not so good, I found out I have a 12mm stone and a 9mm stone in my left kidney, they increased from 4mm and got that large in only 6 months. My right kidney has two 8 mm stones. So November 6th I go for lithotripsy to try and break up the 12mm and 9mm, but my doctor is concerned that it's just too big to break up, and if it doesn't then we'll be talking more invasive surgery, they'll go up into my urinary tract and into my kidney to break the stone apart with a very small laser, then I get a stent put in to drain all the fragments. I've had this done before and the stent pretty much hurts all day and it makes you feel like you have to pee every 10 minutes. The other option is to go in through my back and take the stones out, and a hospital stay of a week. So, I'm really hoping the litho procedure works, it usually does for my smaller stones (I get this done at least twice a year). The right side I get blasted on December 4th.

The other not so good news is a very good friends of ours mom has been in the hospital with a large skin growth on her chest, she prolonged going to her doctor and when she did he immediately sent her to be admitted to the hospital for removal of the growth and biopsy. They think it's melanoma that possible has spread to her bones. He is a single dad and his mom has been helping raise the little girl, she's 5 years old now. So, he's devastated and doesn't know what he'll do if he loses his mom, I'm so sad for him. She's a great lady that I've had the pleasure of having a few drinks with on may occasions throughout the years. We're all praying and hoping they caught it in time.

Pictures are in!

2009-10-10T08:57:00.001-07:00

We picked up our pictured yesterday and they came out pretty good, Jack was so tired that day and in a few you can see his red rimmed eyes, but here are a few of my favorites! We're getting more done probably next month, and hopefully he has a good nap day then!

Update

2009-09-30T10:06:00.000-07:00

I haven't had much time for updates lately, so I figured I would do a quick one. Jack has been napping just awful lately, especially when we need to go somewhere. Like yesterday I had a foot doctor appointment and he only took a 20 min. nap and then refused to go down any more, and he won't sleep in the car so he was up all day pretty much until 6 o'clock. Today he's much better and had actually been sleeping for over an hour already, so I was able to jump in the shower and clean out the refrigerator. We got our pics done on Saturday (another no-nap day for Jack) and it went ok except that Jack was so tired and cranky that we wouldn't really smile. We did get a few good ones though and we also got a family portrait done. They won't be in until Oct. 9th though (our 5 th wedding anniversary!) I'll post a few here when I get them. Jack has also had a really runny nose since like last week, I check his temp and it's fine, but yesterday I noticed it wasn't really running while we were out, so I think he may be allergic to something at home, cats maybe? I hope not!

My birthday was the 28th and yesterday I scratched a $500.00 winner on a ticket!! That was a great B-day surprise! So we're going shopping for some much needed clothes, and also we can get our furnace fixed sooner!

He's standing!

2009-09-20T16:06:00.000-07:00

Jack pulled up today on his feet all by himself and cruised all afternoon, and this happened while I was out with my friend Kerri! I came home and Sean was like come here and see what Jack's doing, so I peek into the living room and there, hanging on to his new toy with one had while waving around the other was Jack, all smiles! I couldn't believe it lol, the little stinker waits till I'm out to do it. He also has his first cold, it's not bad, and I'm really not sure if it's just allergies either, but either way he's fine and eating more than ever. We made an appointment for next Saturday to get his pictures done, FINALLY! It seems like every month we said we were going to, but just never got around to it. Sean wants to pick out one of his outfits, which is fine. Sean and I may get into a few pictures, I'm really self conscious right now so we'll see.

Jack waves Hi

2009-09-17T05:48:00.000-07:00

Jack has started waving over the past few days, if I say Hi he'll usually wave, it's pretty funny! He's also finally getting used to more "textured" food but still will not eat any finger foods, he'll play with them and fling them on the floor but they never make it into his mouth. He got his flu shot the other day and he has to get another in one month. I guess anyone under 9 years old has to get it in two separate doses. I'm not too sure about the swine flu shot yet though, it kind of makes me nervous so we're undecided about that one right now, it's just that it's so new and they made it so quick...I don't know. Anyways, I got a video of Jack playing and he gives a little wave. I still can't upload the Baptism video anywhere because the file is so big, but I'll figure something out.

Jack's Blessing

2009-09-13T09:08:00.000-07:00

We had a Blessing here at home for Jack, since we don't follow any particular religion we decided this was perfect for us. It went great, the minister who did it was my traumatic grief counselor from 8 years ago (long story) She also married us in 2004 and did my best friend's girls Blessing too, so it was special to have her do Jack's Blessing too. I got it all on video and will try to upload it here soon, photobucket is giving me a hard time and youtube says the video is too long so I have to edit it somehow. I do have two pictures of him in his little outfit that my sister got him though and they came out cute! The camera died after the video was taken so I didn't get that many pics.

15 YEARS AGO (1994)

2009-09-02T09:33:00.000-07:00

1) How old were you? 20

2) Who were you dating? Sean

3) Where did you work? Factory

4) Where did you live? Massachusetts

5) Where did you hang out? With friends and Sean

6)Did you wear contacts and/or glasses? nope

7) Who were your best friends? Jenn & Sean

8) How many tattoos did you have? 1

9) How many piercings did you have? ears

10) What kind of car did you drive? I didn't

11) Had you been to a real party? yep

12) Had you had your heart broken? yep

13) Were you Single/taken/Married/Divorced? Taken

14) Any Kids? nope

♥10 YEARS AGO (1999)♥

1) How old were you? 25

2) Who were you dating? Sean

3) Where did you work? Factory

4) Where did you live? Massachusetts

5) Where did you hang out? With Sean

6) Did you wear contacts and/or glasses? no

7) Who were your best friends? Sean, Jenn and Kerri

8) How many tattoos did you have? One

9) How many piercings did you have? ears

10) Had your heart broken? Many years ago...

11) Were you Single/Taken/Married/Divorced? Taken

12)Any Kids? No

♥TODAY (2009)♥

1) Age? 35

2) Who are you dating? No One, I'm married :)

3) Where do you work? At Home

4) Where do you live? Massachusetts

5) Who are your closest friends? Sean, Jenn & Kerri and of course my son Jack!

6) Do you talk to your old friends? Yep, some not all though

7) How many piercings do you have? ears

8) How many tattoos? one, I do want another though

9) What kind of car do you have? Monte Carlo SS

10) Had your heart been broken? Long, long ago

11) How many kids? 1

12) Are you Single/Taken/Married/Divorced? married

Nine Months

2009-08-24T05:03:00.000-07:00

Jack turned 9 months on Friday, he is really growing up! He is doing so much now and every day it seems it's something new, he's just so much fun and I can't imagine life without him! He is still trying to get up on his feet, yesterday he put his head on the floor and lifted but up and had his feet on the floor, it looked like he was trying to do a head stand lol. On Friday he had his 9 month check up, he is 15 lbs 60z and 27 1/2 inches long. The pedi said he is tiny for his age but said as long as he's eating well, no digestive problems and he's reaching milestones that he isn't too worried. I still haven't gone to get portraits done, I have to remind Sean that we need to get them done soon.

We met with an architect to discuss our house addition and renovations, and it looks like we came up with a good set of plans. The only thing is that I think I want the kitchen extended just a bit more. Sean wants to leave the laundry in the basement, but I would rather have in on the main floor somewhere, it's a pain in the ass to lug laundry baskets up and down two flights of stairs. I'll update as we go along, it should be interesting.

And last but not least, a few Jack pics :)

First night out in a while!

2009-08-18T10:15:00.001-07:00

On Sunday night Sean and I went on the 4th annual Province town boat cruise that friends of ours who own a bar put together every year. Last year I didn't go because I was big and pregnant, so this year Sean talked me into going. His mom was here and watched Jack, we left at 4 o'clock and he goes to bed at 6 so she only had to watch him for like two hours. It was hard though because it was the longest time I've been away from him, even though he was sleeping, I still missed him. I can see how mom's who work have a hard time leaving their kids, it's hard! BUT...I had an awesome time! We also brought my best friend Kerri along, she has three girls and her hubby told her to go, she's been under alot of stress and needed to get away. We didn't get in until 3am though lol, it's a long boat ride on the way back, it took 2 hours. I was sooo tired yesterday. I have a few pics, but I didn't really take many. I'll post some when I get a chance.

Jack is now trying to pulling up to stand, and he will not fall asleep because he wants to practice, it's driving me nuts lol! Not to mention he's banging his head everywhere and has three bruises on his forehead. This Friday he goes for his 9 month check up. I'm so curious to see how much he's gained. He's still fitting into 6 month and some 6-9 month stuff. He has definitely gotten longer though.

Oh, my blood work for rheumatoid arthritis came back negative and all looked good. I have to go for more blood work though to test for Lyme Disease. i got two injections in my feet for the pain (hurt like a son of a B!) but it helped alot! I go back in 6 weeks for an foot ultrasound to look for possible tissue damage.

My New Online Store

2009-08-12T12:29:00.000-07:00

I found a great new site for my online store, It's awesome because I don't need to put my designs on every product, shoppers simply pick the design they like and choose what they want it on and customize it, they have kids and baby stuff too. I have a few designs up and will be uploading a lot more when Jack naps over the next day or two. Here is the link for anyone who wants to check it out!

Devious Designz

Jack is pulling up..

2009-08-10T13:06:00.000-07:00

Well, he's pulling up on everything on his knees, and this morning I caught him trying to get one foot placed so he could pull up on it! He's been army crawling all over the place, and of course he's wacking his head too, he has two bruises on his forehead. The other day he fell back while just sitting there playing and banged his head on the baby gate. I put blankets around all the things I think he could wack his head on lol, and Sean's mom got some corner cushions for the coffee table. He's also very squirmy and won't let me hold him for long unless he can play with my necklace. I miss cuddling :( This weekend we went to my great nephew's 4th b-day party, I can't believe he's 4 already. It was a good time, but Jack missed nap time and was getting fussy, we left after like an hour and a half. I think we were all in bed by 8 last night lol, I was just sooo exhausted and I slept all night until 6 when Jack woke up. Anyways..here's a few recent pics, a few of him on his knees playing with his chair straps lol.

Not Me! Monday

2009-08-10T11:29:00.000-07:00

This is a fun way to confess something that you've done (or haven't done)! This blog is were I read about, check it out!

I did not recently go almost a week without giving Jack a bath, I honestly forgot! Not me! I most certainly did not forget to tell Sean that the soy sauce I cooked with the other night was NOT gluten free, ooops, not me!

Vote for Sean's Band!

2009-08-04T11:42:00.000-07:00

Sean found out that his other band "Tryptonite" is a finalist for the opening slot for Motley Crue! This is pretty cool, their band hasn't all played together in a long time, they used to play all over Boston, R.I. and played one show in California. Here is the link if you want to vote!

http://www.whjy.com/pages/cruefest_bands_vote.html

Busy weekend, feeling run down!

2009-08-03T12:58:00.000-07:00

We had a very busy weekend and I'm glad it's Monday. Don't get me wrong, I had fun, but I've been feeling totally exhausted and this weekend really did me in. On Thursday Sean's mother came down and brought lobsters and steamers for Sean's birthday, we ended up staying up that night until like midnight. Friday we all went to town and walked about 2 miles then came back and cooked, then our friends came over and we again were up until midnight or a little past. I could not sleep all night, I was tossing and turning and my hips were really painful, so I didn't fall asleep until probably about 3am. Saturday morning we had Jack's swim lessons at 9, and I did take a one hour nap when we got back. Saturday night I went out and saw Sean's 80's cover band, it was my second time out seeing the band since Jack was born and also my first time out without Jack in months. It was a blast, I got to see people I haven't seen in ages. I didn't get to sleep that night until 3am either! Then, last night a friend of ours that lives across the street came over. I went to bed at 11, and left the guys in the kitchen, I just could not hang anymore lol. So today I feel kind of crappy, I cannot wait until bedtime! Jack has been awesome though and let me sleep until 7 this morning, he's usually up at 6. He also napped great today and I should have too but wanted to get housework done.

Jack laughing video

2009-07-29T11:34:00.001-07:00

I just had to get this on video yesterday, Sean was playing with him and I heard all this laughing going on in the living room, so I got my camera. He's been really giggly lately, it's soo cute lol! Here's the video and a laughing pic from yesterday-

New Online Consignment Store

2009-07-27T11:49:00.000-07:00

I found this website in Parents magazine and I decided to check it out. It looks pretty new because there isn't much on there yet, but there's more and more every day that I check. I think I may try to sell a few of my things on there and see how it goes. I sell on Ebay some, but the fees are too much, I mostly buy on there. Just wanted to share this and post the link

Crossroads Consignment

Baby Gates-Jack is on the move!

2009-07-26T15:47:00.000-07:00

We got two gates this weekend and have them up, the challenge though is our stairs because the stairs are impossible to put a gate at the bottom of. We'll have to figure something out but hopefully we still have some time yet before he starts trying to go upstairs. He's crawling all the time now and is getting pretty quick, he does half army crawl and half all fours crawl lol, too cute. We had a busy weekend, we took Jack to the beach Saturday for the first time after swim class and a nap. He loved the sand and water! I forgot my camera though so no pics, I'll have to try to remember next time. Oh and he's finally sleeping in his cribs for all naps! YAY!

Embarrassing Moments

2009-07-23T06:03:00.000-07:00

Ok, this is really embarrassing but very hilarious! I know of two other people who have done it, and one I was there for. Well, I was out this past weekend shopping and I came out of the store and hit my "unlock" button on my starter to unlock the car. I walked up to the car opened the door and sat in the drivers seat, I put my bag on the passengers seat and when I went to close the door I noticed something looked different. I looked around and realized I was in the wrong car! I quickly hopped out and ripped my bag and purse from the seat and closed the door. I couldn't get away fast enough. Thankfully the owner didn't come out and find me there LMAO!! When I told Sean we died laughing! Another time, a long time ago when we were first legal to buy alcohol we all went to the liquor store to get some stuff, me, Sean and our friend Arthur went in. Sean and I were done first and Arthur was still looking around so we went out and waited in the car. A few minutes later we saw Arthur come out and proceed to open a car door a few spaces down and sit in the back seat, he thought we were still in the store. The car was exactly like ours. We sat there laughing and he was just sitting there looking forward. The car next to us pulled out and the car he was sitting in was in full view. Arthur slowly turned his head and saw us laughing and looked horrified. I never saw someone jump out of a car so quick, it was hysterical!

8 months today!!

2009-07-21T08:25:00.000-07:00

And another month has flown by, Jack is 8 months old today! I have no idea how 8 months has gone by! My little man has brought so much joy and happiness to DH and I, and to our family. We've had lots of tough times in the past few years with my health and the passing of my sister and parents and Jack is just what we needed, sunshine from the darkness. We're having so much fun with him and I'm looking forward to watching him grow, I just wish it would go a little slower lol! Here are some recent pics from the other day.

Teeth

2009-07-19T06:47:00.000-07:00

I finally got a pic of Jacks two bottom teeth, I had to fight for it lol. I took it last week, they've come up a bit more since then. He's fighting naps in the crib still, I put him in yesterday morning for a nap and he slept a half hour before swim class. I put him in again for his afternoon nap, and he did finally fall asleep for about an hour. This morning I gave in and put him in his swing all swaddled and he fell asleep instantly and has been sleeping for 2 hours so far. I don't get why he'll sleep great all night in his crib but wants no part of it for naps? Oh well, I suppose I'll have to work on it and eventually he'll do naps in the crib...I hope. Oh, Sean's mom came over yesterday and gave Sean a bunch of his baby pics! and also pics of his dad which was wonderful because he only has two pics of him. I'll post some here when I get a chance. Sean was born with a bilateral cleft palate and lip and has endured 18 surgeries, the first being at a month old. His mom had to feed him with an eye dropper and syringe. It's amazing though what they can do, especially nowadays, he had a total re-construction of his jaw at 18, it was his last surgery and I remember seeing him in Children's Hospital. Anyways..we're off maybe to the beach today, it's supposed to be a perfect day! That doesn't happen here much this summer! Here's Jacks teeth pic:

Jack amazed me!

2009-07-16T08:50:00.000-07:00

A few times a week Jack and I look at a book of colors and another of numbers, we've been doing this since he was 3 months old. So this morning I thought I would see if he could recognize some of the colors I've been teaching him. Well, I don't know if it's a coincidence or if it's paying off because he grabbed the toy with the correct color! I took two video's because you never know he may not do it again for a while and I wanted to show his nana! He amazed me yesterday too when I was in the kitchen and I went in to check on him, I found him sitting up, he sat up all on his own! He's growing up so fast! Here are the videos I took this morning:

Jack's first swim lesson

2009-07-14T06:54:00.000-07:00

Jack had his first swim lesson this past Saturday. Sean went in with him and he did great! Jack loved the water and never cried once. I took 3 videos, they didn't come out too clear but they look good enough. He goes every Saturday for 8 weeks, then we'll re-sign him up again, we want to keep him going. His two bottom teeth are now pretty much all the way up, but he still won't let me get a picture lol, he moves way too much! He now rock on all fours for a few minutes at a time and really get around good doing the army crawl and rolling. This weekend we'll be getting some gates.

I also went to the podiatrist for my foot pain, she took x-rays right there and didn't see anything except for old injuries I did at work dropping auto parts on my toes. She wants me to get some blood work done as she thinks I may have Rheumatoid arthritis or some nerve condition, I'm also getting a fasting sugar done to test for diabetes. I won't know anything for 4 weeks when I go back to her though. I have two prescriptions for pain, but I hate taking pills. Anyways...here are a few videos of Jack's swim lesson and some recent pics :)

Blah! I hate rain!!

2009-07-07T12:27:00.000-07:00

I am officially sick of the rain, it has rained the whole month of June and so far this month I think we've only had one day of no rain at all. I know that rain is good and it's better than drought like some parts of the country, but geez, you think maybe this rain could go where it's needed?? Ahhh well, not much I can do about it. Sean is going to a Judas Priest concert tonight and is really looking forward to it. I used to love concerts before I developed crowd phobia, now I can't stand to be around more than like 20 people lol. Jack has been a little stinker today with naps, he's been fighting them all day, and now finally has been sleeping a half hour. He refuses to sleep in his crib for naps still and has to be in the swing. If I put him in his crib he immediately goes on all fours and "crawls" around and gets aggravated and fusses. He does this at bedtime too but he usually only does it for a few minutes then dozes off. I tried a new food today with him, I pureed brown rice and mixed it with carrots and he ate it all! I tasted it and it isn't too bad.

For those with a good sense of humor that likes "potty" humor, you have to check this out lol!

Modern Toilet

A great 4th, Jack's new teeth and a crawl!

2009-07-06T07:45:00.000-07:00

Jack's two bottom teeth are now very visible, I have tried to get a pic but he refuses lol, I'll get one sooner or later! We had a great 4th of July weekend, we went over to Sean's sister's on the Cape, she lives on a huge lake. We went out on their boat and Jack loved it! He had practically no naps the whole day but was very good, didn't even fuss. He passed out on the way home though. We didn't bother with the fireworks, I think he's still too young and he was exhausted anyways. There's also far too big of a crowd here and traffic is horrendous on the 4th. The thing we would have gone to is the parade, but Plymouth didn't have one this year :( I guess there wasn't enough money to do one. I hope they do it next year, this was the first year Plymouth hasn't had one since I can remember. Oh, and I caught Jack in an official crawl! He's been getting on all fours all the time now and does the "army crawl" to get around, but the other day he was real quite so I peeked into the living room and he was on all fours and did two crawls forward before plopping back onto his belly! So next week we're getting all our baby gates ready :) Here are some 4th of July pics of Jack- I have more, but this blogger is slow today for uploading. Before I forget...Jack got a splinter from the boat dock, Sean was sitting on it with him and he got one in his leg. I read somewhere that onion removes splinters, so I cut a piece of onion and just held in on the splinter. After a minute I rubbed it and took it off, the splinter was completely out and on the onion! I thought that was pretty cool.

We've got an erupting tooth!

2009-06-25T04:58:00.001-07:00

I noticed just the other day that Jack has a tooth just breaking through! I have a hard time seeing it because he sticks his tongue out whenever I try to look in there, but when he laughs I can really see it. He hasn't been all that fussy (knock on wood lol) but I noticed when he sucks on his bottle that he starts fussing, and I was told that could be because it hurts his gums when he sucks. I haven't given him anything, just teething rings and he hasn't run any fevers, so hopefully we'll be lucky and get through this first round of teething pain free. Oh, and he's got this thing against getting changed now, he gets upset when I have to change his diaper or clothes, I think he thinks he's missing something lol!

Before I forget..check this site out, it's wigs for dogs!! LMAO! there's also a cat wig site, too funny!

http://www.wigglesdogwigs.com/

7 months!!

2009-06-22T09:28:00.000-07:00

Jack turned 7 months the other day, it's hard to believe that over half a year has gone by. I can't remember life without my little guy, it seems like he's always been here :) I noticed just this morning that he has two teeth ready to pop out, they are just below the surface and one I can feel poking through. The other night he was really cranky and didn't sleep well at all, but was fine the next day. It's good too because we had a graduation party to go to and I was praying that he would be ok to go after hardly a good nights sleep. Today I'm making another batch of baby food, and I'm thinking of pureeing some cooked chicken tomorrow. I gave him a jar of chicken and sweet potatoes that Sean's mother brought over and he loved it. I always try to put pics up with my posts, so here are the most recent one's I took the other day

He's almost got it!

2009-06-18T10:18:00.000-07:00

Jack is pretty close to getting on hands and knees! This morning I caught him with his knees underneath him but when he tries to push up on all fours he launches forwards and gets mad lol. I tried taking a pic but by the time I get it out, turn it on and point he's already down again. So, now this means we seriously need to think about baby proofing. I already have outlet covers in, but I have to start putting things up high, and remind Sean to get used to picking up his guitar picks from the tables and floor. That's the excitement for this week, maybe in the next few weeks I can report a crawl :) As for me, I'm still really drained and tired all the time. I think I may call my doctor next week for a thyroid check, it may be off again. Here's a few Jack pics from the other day:

Jack's first dip in water besides his bath!

2009-06-08T07:38:00.001-07:00

I got a really cute little pool from One Step Ahead, you hook your hose to it and it fills up on the inside and had all these little fountains that comes squirting up, there's cute little sea creatures all on the bottom and it fills to about 2 inches deelp. You control how high the water goes by adjusting the hose pressure. Anyways, yesterday was really warm so I put Jack in his little swim trunks and sub hat and we tried it out. I got into my bathing suit (that was scary lol, I wore my cover up over it) At first he was a bit scared, he cried when I dipped his feet, he's never felt colder water before and didn't know what to make of it. He sort of got used to it and liked the fountains but wanted no part of sitting in the water, so I just had him on my lap or on the side of it and dipped his feet. It was to cute! I got covered in mud though, the pool over flows some and I happened to set it up where the grass was thin. Sean got a few pics, but they look a million miles away, but here is one of the closer ones and also a video of Jack babbling, it came out a little dark though.

Soo Tired!

2009-06-05T10:40:00.000-07:00

I don't know what it is but I have been really exhausted lately. Jack sleeps all night now and I get up to go the the bathroom twice, but I sleep the rest of the time. I also have been sleeping during Jack's morning naps and I'm STILL tired. I think I might have to get my thyroid checked again sooner than 6 months. I have also had more trouble breathing so that may be it too, I don't know. Jack has been Mr. hyper lately though, he's constantly on the move and doesn't even stay still for his bottle anymore. And he's also talking up a storm, new word this week is "dadadada" much to Sean's delight, he's been saying mama for a while now but is saying it a lot more now. Last night during the night I found him on his stomach fussing, so I had to go roll him back on his side, he still hates being on his tummy. Here's the latest pics of my gubz!

Newest Design! And green beans don't agree with Jack..

2009-05-29T08:53:00.000-07:00

I entered a T-shirt design contest on Threadless, It's a strange design but I really like how it came out. Right now it's only being critiqued then I submit to the contest. The chances of winning are slim, but hey it's all in good fun! Here is the design and the link to the critique: Something On My Mind

Ok, and on to Jack, well I have been feeding him green beans for a little over a week now and twice now after he's had them he's woken up screaming with gas pains. After he burps, farts and spits up everywhere he's all set. So, we'll be laying off the greenies for a while and see how he does.

Here is my design up for scoring! It isn't approved just yet but should be up soon

Jack's 6 month stats

2009-05-23T05:34:00.000-07:00

Jack did just fine yesterday with his shots, only cried for a few seconds then went back to his smiling flirting self lol. He weighs 13 lbs 7 0z. and 25 inches long, he's on the small side but the pedi wasn't too concerned. He said he'll be a small guy when he's an adult and looked at me and Sean and said well you guys are no giants either lol. He has to stay on the zantac and I can now feed him three meals a day of solids. He goes back in 3 months for his 9 month appointment, but no shots this time.

6 months and some videos

2009-05-22T06:36:00.000-07:00

Jack is 6 months, wow in 6 more months he'll be a year! As much as I love seeing him grow, at the same time I want him to be a baby forever lol. Today we take him for his 6 month check-up and I can't wait to see how much he weighs and how long he got. Here are some pics and videos I took yesterday :)

Drained and frustrated..

2009-05-19T09:19:00.000-07:00

I don't know what it is, but over the past few weeks I've become less patient, quick to cry and more frustrated at small things. It's really bothering me because I'm generally really happy with life right now and I love Jack to pieces. I'm also getting impatient with people's comments lately about me getting out of the house more. I'll go out when I'm damn good and ready, I'm getting sick of everyone pushing me to do what THEY want me to do with Jack and I'm getting ready to tell someone off about it next time a comment like that comes up. They don't understand anxiety or have to deal with panic attacks. On a good day yes I may go out with Jack and be perfectly fine, I did it once for the doctors appointment and I did ok I thought. I know it's important to get out of the house and what not, but to constantly hear about how I don't go out enough gets old fast. Anyways..on a lighter note Sean and I are signing Jack up for water babies! classes are on Saturday mornings so Sean will be able to go with us and go in the water (I have no clue where any of my bathing suits are) so that should be cute, I can't wait!

Green Beans And The Weekend

2009-05-18T13:33:00.001-07:00

Jack had green beans today for the first time today, I made up a small batch. I wasn't sure if he would like them because he won't eat peas but he loved them!! We all had a long weekend, and a busy one too. Sean has Fridays off right now, down to a 32 hour work week and he's getting some unemployment too, so it's not too bad. Anyways, on Friday we took Jack for a walk down by the ocean then went back to our favorite Restaurant and ordered food to take home. By then Jack was tired and fussy so I knew we would never make it through a meal. Saturday I made a lasagna but was only bale to make half because the noodles broke apart, I hate that! The noodles are rice noodles because of Sean's celiac disease so they can be tricky to cook. I finished the other half Sunday morning after he went and got me more noodles. Then we went to see his mom and took the lasagna over and was gonna cook it there. Well..her oven wasn't big enough lol, she lives in a mobile home and the oven is a tad smaller than normal, so we had to cut it up and put it in various tin cookware. I'm tired today so Sean said he would cook, yay!!

Jack likes daddy's corvette

2009-05-13T07:33:00.000-07:00

Sean had the corvette out last night, him and a buddy from work replaced the gaskets and it saved us tons of money. It's been sitting in the car port for months, so Sean was syched to be able to drive it again! He sat in it with Jack and I took a few pics and a short video. I guess it was all the excitement because the little stinker would not go to sleep last night, I let him cry for about 15 minutes then it took me an hour to calm him down, he was not happy with me at all. He finally fell asleep at 10 o'clock. I found him on his side and sideways in his crib this morning, seems like this is his favorite sleeping position now haha

My first mothers day

2009-05-11T06:15:00.000-07:00

My day was great, I didn't get lots of flowers or presents but I spent it with my little guy and that's what really matters. It was an exhausting day though. we had to go see Sean's nana who's 103 and in a nursing home. It's almost 2 hours away and Jack was cranky because he hardly napped all morning. He did ok though considering. We then went to my MIL's house and my SIL brought all kinds of food, I brought potato salad. My MIL had shoulder surgery last Thursday so she was hurting. She's stubborn and was trying to use her shoulder more than she should have so we had to make her site down lol. My SIL brought her little pup Sammy, I made her a mother's day card and she just loved it! I got a short video of Jack and Sammy, it's soo cute! Jack slept all night without a peep, he was so exhausted. This morning I found him sideways in his crib laying on his side with his arm across his face just like his daddy lol! All in all it was a good mother's day, Sean is taking me and Jack out Friday (he's off Fridays for awhile, down to 32 hour work week now) and I'm buying something for myself, don't know what yet though. Well here's the video of Sammy and Jack, it's only like 35 seconds though because my camera card was full.

Remembering Mom

2009-05-10T08:12:00.000-07:00

My mom passed away in 2004 at 63 years old, she had liver cirrhosis from years of alcohol abuse. Her last three years were spent sober and I became closer to her, we did everything together. She needed a liver transplant and I wanted to give her half of mine, the liver can re-grow from just a piece of someone else's. But my health was too poor and her lungs were too bad for any surgery. I was heart broken. I saw her suffer through fluid in her belly, making her appear (and feel) 9 months pregnant, she had a variety of medications every day to take and she was in and out of the hospital. But though she was suffering, she was a strong woman and just kept going, she lasted three years over what the doctors said she would. My mom was amazing and would always help others before she did anything for herself, she was also hilarious and we laughed almost every day over something. I miss her and hope that I'll see her again some day when it's my turn. Here are some pics of her, some of the few I have on this computer.

Mom and her best friend, taken years ago

Mom and dad on their wedding day.

My brain is on fast forward...

2009-05-06T10:20:00.000-07:00

but my body won't cooperate! I thought I was headed for an ER visit on Sunday night when I had bad pain through my stomach and back, I have pancreatitis so I thought this was another "attack" coming on. Sean was at band practice so I just kind of walked around the house, I even used Jack's Happi Tummy thing on my belly. The pain finally subsided around midnight, Sean was worried and thought I should go to the ER, but I'm stubborn and waited it out. I have had pancreatic problems all my life but over the past 10 years it has been especially bad and I've been in and out of Boston hospitals. So..I've been tired this week to say the least and there's so much I want to get done but I'm just too tired. On top of that I have to dig out papers for my sister from when we probated my parents' will and I have no clue where I put everything. Oh well, maybe I'll send Sean hunting for them lol.

Jack has been great and is sitting up better and better every day. I recently did a little photo shoot, here are some of my favorites!

Sitting Jack!

2009-05-04T13:48:00.000-07:00

Jack will sit for a few seconds at a time now, sometimes longer. I got him on video just a little while ago.

Jack loves watching daddy on guitar

2009-05-03T16:46:00.000-07:00

I got this video today of Sean playing and Jack watching, he plays every night and Jack is just intrigued by his fingers on the guitar neck. Jack is also sitting up by himself! At least this evening he did, and I thought I would catch it on video but my camera battery died :( I'll try to get him tomorrow sitting up and post it!

My first day out with Jack alone

2009-05-01T09:41:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was my first day I took Jack out by myself, I was kind of intimidated by the idea but I had no choice I had a doctors appointment and Sean can't take any time off right now. So he left me our Grand Prix and he took the Monte to work yesterday. My appointment was at 2:45 and my little chicken head would not nap, he usually naps from like noon to 1:30, but nope not yesterday. He finally fell asleep at 2:15 and I had to wake him up, but surprisingly he was fine and not grumpy. He did great and never made a peep until we were in the room and waiting for my doctor, then he started getting bored and fussing. My doctor came in and he was all smiles lol. All in all It wasn't so bad, my anxiety wasn't too bad and him being good helped a lot! My appointment went ok, the nurse practitioner who was there used to work at my old doctor's office and she recognized me right way. It turns out that I need my blood sugar tested and I also have something weird going on with my feet, the bones hurt in both of them and it's worse when I've been sitting or laying down then get up, it hurts and I walk funny it's embarrassing when I'm out. So I have to go to a foot doctor :/ Anyways..I'm so proud of myself for taking Jack out on my own, now I won't be so anxious about it next time!

Opinions needed

2009-04-28T11:51:00.000-07:00

I know I haven't got many readers, but if you happen to read my blog, I need some opinions on something. It's sort of an idea that came from a drawing I did a while back and everyone I have shown it to thinks I should do something with it, but I don't know what. The drawing is called "Doctorpus" and it's basically a drawing of an octopus and in each tentacle he's holding something related to being a doctor- a scalpel, a thermometer,a blood pressure cuff ect.. and he has a surgeons hat on. I'll post a picture once I either scan it or take a pic of it. Anyways I was thinking about writing a children's story for sick kids about being in the hospital and somehow incorporating the Doctorpus . Has anyone got any info on how I would go about submitting my "idea"? I'm a pretty good writer but I have next to no time to write anything at the moment lol, but I was thinking if I could find some children's book writers that I could submit my ideas to them?

UPDATE: A pic of the "Doctorpus"

Jack's first birthday party and first kiss!

2009-04-28T05:59:00.000-07:00

Saturday we went to my friend Kerri's daughters' b-day party, one turned 2 the other turned 5. Jack did excellent and all the ladies were passing him around. Sarah, one of the birthday girls who just turned 2 absolutely loves Jack and was kissing him all day, it was too cute! It was a long day for me though and I was so exhausted that I was asleep that night by 8:30. This Thursday I go to the docs. and I'm telling him about my hip pain and new feet pain. Anyways, here are a few pics of Jack getting his first kiss!

Here are a few from earlier that day, it hit 80 degrees and he got to wear his first summer outfit! His hat kept twisting around lol

Maybe going modular..

2009-04-24T10:38:00.000-07:00

Sean and I have been throwing around the idea of tearing down this house and replacing with a modular. This house needs a lot of work and we were originally going to do an addition, but then this house would need a major renovation. The septic isn't working right anymore and that needs replacing, the furnace needs to be done, the roof, all the flooring and the list goes on. So, we've looked at a few different sites that do tear down/rebuilds and found one right near us. It would be so cool if we could do it, I could have all one floor, right now all the bedrooms are upstairs and laundry in the basement which is fine right now..but I know eventually the stairs will be a problem for me as I get older. We're going to call and maybe get a consult soon to see what we can do and for how much.

Jack is 5 months!!

2009-04-22T09:46:00.000-07:00

I just realized that Jack is 5 months! Wow, I can't believe the time went that fast, before I know it he'll be a year. He's currently starting to sit unassisted, and he's close to rolling from back to tummy, he's doing this "upside down crab" walk thing too lol. He is eating solids twice a day now and I fed him avocados and banana's and he loved them. He's starting to fight nap time lately, I'll put him down and like 10 minutes later he's awake playing with his feet lol, he is sleeping ok at night still, although the past few nights he's been waking more. Maybe teething? He loves to talk too, all the new noises are so cute and he'll make expressions too as though he's telling you a story. As for his weight, I'm guessing (and hoping) he's at least over 12 pounds, he sure is long too seems like he's growing into all his 6 month stuff pretty quick length wise. It's amazing that every day I love him more, he's truly the greatest thing that happened to me and Sean!

Way Back Whensday-Friends

2009-04-22T05:52:00.000-07:00

I thought I would play along too! This is me, Sean and a great friend that we unfortunately lost last year, it was taken at out favorite hang out probably 2 years ago or so.

A busy Easter weekend

2009-04-15T05:31:00.000-07:00

We had quite a busy Easter weekend. On Saturday we went to my SIL's surprise 50th B-day party, I swear there were about 20 little boys there and they screamed and ran the whole time, It was loud to say the least! It was raining so they couldn't go outside. Needless to say Jack didn't get his afternoon nap and got a bit cranky by evening so we left around 6:30. He went out like a light in the car. On Sunday my mother in law, sister in law, her husband, my brother in law and wife and their daughter Katy came over. We cooked a ham and Janice (sister in law) brought the potatoes and vegetables. They just got a puppy and they brought her along, she is soo adorable, her name is Sammy. She's only 4 pounds lol! Here are some weekend pics

Little Sammy

Jack in his Easter outfit

In his new sun glasses daddy bought him!

At home photo shoot

2009-04-10T11:04:00.000-07:00

I dressed up Jack and took some pics yesterday, it's so hard to get him at the right mood some days because he gets irritated quick being propped and posed lol. It so happened that I was able to get him right after his nap and before he ate (to avoid spitty's) Here they are..

In Memory Of My Sister Cheryl

2009-04-07T06:34:00.001-07:00

Seven years ago on April 8th, my family got the worst news ever. My 40 year old sister had been found dead, and it was a homicide. I was and still am in disbelief, I made a website in her memory here. I'm so angry still and am crushed that Jack will never know his auntie Cheryl

Here is a poem I wrote during her trial called "The Trial"

The Trial

The time has come

It's been two years
I'm overcome by all my fears
I walk up to double doors
Emotions feel like open sores
Eyes tear up, I start to shake
Don't know how much more I can take
No one knows how scared I feel
My senses sharpen, things seem unreal
I squeeze the hand that's holding mine
Whispered words "it'll be just fine"
We sit down in the front row seat
I notice how he looks so neat
I'm glaring at his sideways face
I want to spit at such disgrace
The jurors enter, we hear "all rise"
I hope they saw through his disguise
Tears are soaked upon my cheeks
we've waited for this it seems like weeks
My legs go weak, the verdict is read
I still can't believe she's really dead
I fill with joy, I start to cry
I'm glad they saw right through his lie
Arms around me, I'll never forget this day
The day her killer was put away-

Tanya G. 2004

In Memory Of Cheryl

Shinanagins with wigs!

2009-04-06T12:53:00.001-07:00

Ok, so yesterday Sean's drummer Adam and guitar player Kris came over with wigs and we had a photo shoot for their up-coming 80's gig, they'll make flyers and all that with the pics lol. I was seriously almost peeing myself while taking them! Here's a few pics:

Oh.. on another note Jack is now eating rice cereal with apple sauce, he's been liking it! I'll post a pic when I get one of him eating. I hope now that he gains a little more weight

April is awful

2009-04-02T06:16:00.000-07:00

April seems to be a very bad month for my family, in another post I'll get into it more, but this morning my sister called and her boyfriend Dennis who she's been with for 25 years is on life support. He took a percocet for back pain, and it was either too strong of a dose or he was allergic they're not sure yet. My sister found him un-responsive sitting up on the couch at 3 this morning and called 911. She's so freaked out and so am I, I'm worried sick about her because she has serious health problems and probably won't take care of herself during all this. I have no one to babysit Jack or I would be up there sitting with her, maybe when Sean gets home I'll run up to be with her. Hopefully I'll have a good update soon.

*UPDATE*

He is doing much better, is off the ventilator and is alert and awake. He does have some left side paralysis that their not sure will go away or not. My sister is so relieved, I hope now that they'll both take better care of themselves!

New pics of Jack and a new design I did

2009-04-01T12:27:00.000-07:00

I took some pics today of Jack before he got too fussy, he's been fighting naps lately for some reason. I managed to design today too (when Jack finally napped), something I haven't done in a while! Here are the pics and my design

And here is my latest design, will put it in my Zazzle store later!

New video's of Jack

2009-03-27T17:47:00.000-07:00

Cute! I took this video tonight, I love all the new sounds he's making, we also got him in his play saucer and that video you can see on the bottom of the page, for some reason it won't post here. He rolled from his back to belly tonight too, we had lots of fun lol. The little guy went right to sleep tonight and I'm heading that way myself very soon.

Kidney stones

2009-03-27T11:24:00.000-07:00

I went in today for what is now becoming more of a routine procedure for me. I had my left kidney stone blasted with a lithotripsy machine, I'm usually in there at least 4 time a year. All the nurses and anesthesiologists know me now lol. My mil came over and watched Jack and my sister brought me home from the hospital so Sean could go to work, the less time he takes off the better. We want to save his sick and vacation time for summer. Jack is doing great on the rice cereal, we've been putting it in his bottles and the spit-up has gone down in volume, so thats good and he's been on the Zantac too and is not crying as much anymore, the stomach acid must've hurt the poor little guy! I'm kind of groggy still from the drugs, so off to the couch I go, I'll catch up more on here later.

4 Month Appointment

2009-03-24T09:31:00.000-07:00

Jack's 4 month appointment went ok, we were surprised to find that he weighs only 11 lbs 9 oz. , he has reflux and it seems he's spitting out too much and it's effecting his weight gain. So, our pedi prescribed some Zantac and also to start some rice cereal. Everything else looked great though, he's developing very well and is strong. He got his shots and did very well, he only cried for a minute and was done, we took him out after to The Mill and he was great! My sister stopped by this morning to see him and he was all giggles and smiles, so the shots didn't seem to effect him much. Here's a few pics from yesterday

Bath time!

In his little bear outfit

The weekend

2009-03-23T06:50:00.000-07:00

We had a great weekend, on Friday a friend I've known all my life came over, he is going through a divorce so he's been hanging out with us. Sean bought two wigs at a wig shop on Friday after work lol, they're for an 80's gig that the band will be doing so he got a longish one and a short emo type one, so we spent Friday night trying them on and laughing, it was great! On Saturday we didn't do much of anything and yesterday Sean's sister and hubby came over, she cooked an awesome meal. Today is Jacks 4 month appointment, I'm so nervous about the shots, I hate those! But hopefully he'll tolerate them well like he did with his 2 month ones. As for me, well I feel a bit run down and my bones are hurting a bit. Friday I go for kidney stone treatment on another stone, this time it's my left kidney. Anyways... I'll write more when we get back from Jacks appointment.

Jack rolled over this evening!!

2009-03-21T16:27:00.000-07:00

I put Jack on his tummy for the heck of it, he usually hates tummy time and fusses soon after I put him down. Well right when I put him down, he flipped right over onto his back! I put him on his tummy again and managed to catch him on video before he started fussing, it's on the youtube slideshow on the bottom of this blog.

Jack is 4 months today!!

2009-03-21T07:13:00.000-07:00

Today Jack is 4 months old, where has the time gone? He amazes me more every day, yesterday he came within inches of rolling from his back to tummy so it's only a matter of time now! Monday he goes for his 4 month appointment and shots, I'm so curious to see how much he weighs and how long he is.

Here's my little 4 month monkey with his favorite book

No more pictures mom please!

Pics and video from this weekend

2009-03-16T06:47:00.000-07:00

Jack out on the deck

My new haircut

Sean on brush burning duty

Bobby and Jack

Our Weekend

2009-03-16T04:49:00.000-07:00

We had a great weekend, the weather was nice and I finally got my hair cut and colored, it feels so much better! We took Jack to our favorite hangout and everyone wanted to hold him and talk to him, he was a little celebrity lol! On Sunday Sean's brother Bobby came over, Sean burned brush in the backyard and I made a pork roast, which came out awesome, I was so exhausted last night though and fell asleep at 8:30 right after Jack went to bed. I have a really cute video of uncle Bo Bo (Bobby lol) playing with Jack and I'll try to upload it today along with pics.

First Blog post!

2009-03-14T16:24:00.000-07:00

This blog will be about my awesome family...my husband, my gorgeous son Jack and myself! I couldn't be any happier and I'm so blessed to have had a chance at becoming a mom! I'll try to keep up with all our happenings, but sometimes I get sidetracked..but I will catch up eventually!